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1. if i sleep with someone who loves me, would i cum quickly? – i normally don’t but i only fucked escorts. since there were no connection with escorts because they are escorts, i didn’t really feel like cumming in or on them. sometimes i lost boner. sometimes i watched corners of the room during doggystyle instead of her great ass. – ps. girls give me hard on in a just few minutes with just just eye contact and basic touch, if i feel like there is a connection and if i find her attractive. but a naked escort grinding on my dick for 15 mins can’t give me a hard on if there is no connection.

2. how does it feel like to sleep with someone you like and someone who likes you? when do you get used to / bored of the same person?

3. i THINK i am able to feel if someone likes me or not when i am close to her. how am i able to do that? everything happens quickly so my mind isn’t consciously aware of whats happening. is this just instinct originating from birth?

4. i must be lonely. how am i not going to get exploited? someone can give me love and exploit me in return. my proposed solution is to get close to multiple people at the same time so my eyes can see if someone tries to exploit me and i can think like i have a backup option.

5. am i gay? i only want to fuck women i love or connect. but other men seem to be unlike me. they just wanna fuck.

6. why can’t i just have casual sex? i act like i am looking for a wife. i push women away if i feel they wouldn’t be a good option in the long term, even if they are extremely attractive. i wish to just fuck but something doesn’t let me do that.