And please don’t tell me “just change jobs”.
Thinking about dieing is like a light at the end of this sewer tunnel.
IME hardest part is getting up and getting out the door. After that things usually aren’t so bad.
I also give myself things to look forward to, reward myself.
it’s ALWAYS the first step, get the momentum going and it’s smooth sailing.
Start a masters thesis. Work feels like a nice break from it.
I’ve tried really hard to get a job that requires as little from me as possible and still pays the bills.
Life is misery, every week I start knowing I will not be allowed enough freedom to ever stop being a wage slave.
I work to stay alive, and have no chance to plan for the future.
I have nothing to live for besides the people I care about, and my work makes it so I have to spend almost all my time away from them or too tired to interact.
Our world is dying and I can’t even be upset about it anymore, becuse whatever happens will be more fulfilling than this
I’ve tried really hard to get a job that requires as little from me as possible and still pays the bills.
And does it make you a better project manager?
I’m not sure how to phrase this without sounding like a condescending jerk, but that’s not my intention.
The thing is, a job that requires as little from you as possible while still paying the bills is guaranteed to be unfulfilling.
There is no fulfilling job in this system
Having a gun put to your head and being told to work or die is not fulfilling in any way. It’s a hostage situation. It’s slavery.
If capitalism didn’t exist and we just had a more archaic society, it would almost invariably be agrarian and you’d need to work for food or also die.
It’s not largely different.
That’s hyperbolic.
When I am allowed to choose to spend my time working twoards the actual benefit of society for a fair wage call me.
Until then I’m not doing any of this voluntarily, it’s against my will. Like a slave
It’s a constant fight for survival, we’ve made the horrible mistake of modeling our systems off of the cruel fuedal hierarchies of the past and the cruel uncaring themes of nature. These are things a fair civil society is supposed to oppose and ours is failing.
Sorry if I can’t delude myself into being a happy slave for some boomer on the internet lol
“Working towards the actual benefit of society” is subjective and I’m not sure what your definition is.
In Western Australia where I live there are several gargantuan projects under construction to use solar to crack hydrogen out of water for export to south east asia. 1,000s of construction jobs in these projects. A labourer without a trade qualification would probably earn at least 2x the average Australian full time wage doing that. A qualified trades person with experience in this type of project might earn 2.5 or even 3x average wage.
I volunteer as the treasurer for a local 18 bed refuge for teenagers without a safe place to live. They employ about a dozen social workers for the in-house and outreach programs. All of these people are earning close to the average full time wage.
My own job as an accountant is less directly “benefit of society” but I do find it satisfying to help people navigate complex situations.
I think most people are able to choose to spend their time working towards the actual benefit of society for a fair wage.
Oh well I live in the US where the less fortunate are put in prison and forced to be slaves.
I’ve never been to the US but I’m certain that’s not true.
I’m not trying to be a snarky online asshole telling you you’re wrong about everything. I’m certain that I’ve felt the way you are in the past. I do genuinely wish you well.
I guess I was just trying to give you some hope for the future by challenging your feeling of hopelessness.
Having a fulfilling weekend helps. The weekends where I sit and rot are where I get to Sunday night and feel like “oh shit I don’t want to go to work I didn’t enjoy my weekend”.
But weekends where I’ve worked on projects, hung out with family and friends, gamed, maybe done some chores or just got out the house help lessen the blow. It also helps that I don’t really sleep in much these days, like I’ll usually get up at 9:30 or 10 and those couple hours instead of getting up at noon help make the day feel more worthwhile.
Doing all that usually has me tired enough going to sleep rather than doom scrolling or brain rotting. Which in turn leads to a gentler time waking up Monday.
And then on Monday itself I kinda ride the high of having a good weekend and that I can push through 8 hours to get back home and continue some of those activities
Figure out how you can enjoy your weekend!l more.
That’s the good bad you don’t.
Start your own business
It’s just that, but every single day
Then you get to send invoices which is like Christmas
Quit.
You need things to work towards.
Also, if one thinks going to work is bad, there will not ever be a worse feeling than coming home fired and pondering how you’re going to upkeep your expenses and a roof over your head.
Simple, I work 7 days a week
Drugs, or you know, getting a job you don’t hate with ever fiber in your body
Avoiding the Monday feel is one of the two benefits to a dynamic schedule. The other is going to the laundromat or doing grocery shopping on a weekday.
I try to remember the little things I like about going to work. Drinking the good coffee I keep there. Chatting with people in the office. Driving home through the summer weather at the end of the day.
Too bad I don’t like anything about it.
I’m afraid there’s nothing you can do if your job truly is that terrible. I know changing jobs isn’t easy or necessarily doable, but it seems like that’s the only “real” option.
I like going to work every day to see some of my coworkers.
I remember reading somewhere that one of the possible reasons for that feeling might be because of the change in times.
As in, when we go to work, we usually have to wake up early and then have our routine during the rest of the day. But on holidays/during the weekend, we tend not to follow any schedules. And then after getting used to waking up whenever we want (or later than usual), we get cranky because our body is (forced to get) used to our working schedule.
So a solution might be go to bed at times that aren’t too different from your usual times during your working days.
Basically, some consistency with your sleep might help.
And please don’t tell me “just change jobs”.
Fair. Can I then suggest a social and political revolution to change the current system in which we have to waste our lives working for rich fucks who don’t care about us?
This really does help. I get up at the same time every day even before my alarm goes off during the week. I have a coffee routine that I follow 7 days a week and I enjoy it. I made myself learn to cook breakfast daily (not just eat cereal) so I eat eggs and some form of toast and maybe some meat. I spend 30 min following this routine and by the time I have to leave for work I feel pretty good about the day. Being hangry and rushed when you get up makes everything suck. Change the routine.
