Outer Wilds is not at all nihilistic but it definitely deals with some of the topics you’ve mentioned, so it might not be a good experience for you.
I absolutely adore the game but it can definitely trigger people. I hope you manage to reach a better head space one day so you can play it!
I would guess that Google uses a randomised rollout system to make changes affect a tiny % of users while they test it (common in big software companies). Changing your useragent might make you appear as a different client that’s not affected (yet). Source: I work in software and can guess.