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Cake day: August 8th, 2023

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  • In the moment It was mostly concerned with the task at hand, which was usually drawing, listening to music and adoring the funky visual effects (no halicunations tho). But the most specific thing that came out of it was changed relationship with some of my friends.

    One of them was, for instance, quite annoying. I seem to be quite sensitive to the stuff, meaning that I was the first one “in” and the last one “out”. He was the kind of guy to tease people a s a joke. It annoyed me before, but during the trips I finally realized how immature and annoying that stuff became. He was joking about me while I was in a vulnerable state and expected maturity from the people around me. The changed perspective meant that I finally got to look from the outside in and determine that I maybe should disengage from the relationship a bit.

    It’s not that I wouldn’t recommend others to do it. I just won’t do it again because I now realize how much this kind of stuff kan really affect you. As long as you’re in the right headspace it can be a very cool experience. I still remember, after hours of chill music, how we all suddenly fell silent after an intense build-up followed by a heavy DnB drop. It felt physical, like I was suddenly pushed into the couch by the bass and couldn’t get out. Not sure if I’ll ever experience music in that way again.


  • Magic mushrooms, or any other psychedelic stuff. I did it three times, and in retrospect I’m not sure if I realized what I was messing with. Unlike being drunk, it actually feels like these instances actually changed me as a person. Not for the worse, but it’s still kinda spooky.

    On the surface it was just some fun, my brain was being silly and everything felt much more vibrant. But beyond that it actually changed my views on people and concepts. It altered my relationships and ultimately who I am as a person. Looking back, thos stuff seems to put your brain into an entirely different mode of creating and removing connections. It’s not just messing with the “RAM” like alcohol, this stuff is writing to disk and making persistent changes.



  • “De Grote Zaal” by Jacoba van Velde. For school we had to read many books. In the earlier years this could be anything as long as it was Dutch, so translated versions of English books were fine. I could read stuff like Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, etc. However, at some point the requirements shifted, and we were only allowed to read Dutch (non-translated) works of literature. This shit single-handedly killed all my fun in reading. Dry books about old people or about the war.

    “De Grote Zaal” is the one that I remember the most. It’s a short book, but it goes pretty much nowhere and doesn’t at all speak to the imagination of a teen guy. To me it represents the death of reading as a hobby. I’ve tried to pick up reading again, but it has since been replaced by other things and I just don’t make the time for it anymore.




  • Idk, it doesn’t really bother me. I’ve never been a picky eater. I used to just buy microwave meals basically every day, maybe cooking some simple pasta in the weekend. But I’ve become a bit more health minded and since I’d basically eat everything anyway I might as well throw some simple stuff together with a lot of vegetables and as little processed food and added sugar as possible.


  • I cook for multiple days, so the same as yesterday and the day before. I was lazy so I bought some pre-cut vegetables (like 800 grams), some vegan chicken replacement, and a red pepper, cooked some rice and added soy sause and some spices. It turned out very nice, apart from the red pepper which is a bit too spicy for my very Dutch tastebuds. Eating this is like russian roulette, every bite will either be very nice or will put my mouth on fire.



  • Forgot the number, but one of the most common Logitech ones. Right now I’m not even getting past the first hurdle though, which is getting Assetto Corsa with Content Manager and mods to start. I spent a few hours on it and then decided that I had better things to do with my time


  • gerryflap@feddit.nltoAsklemmy@lemmy.mllinux or windows?
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    Both. I’d prefer Linux because it respects me as a user, but unfortunately too much stuff constantly breaks to fully convert. The moment I can play Assetto Corsa with all my mods using my wheel in VR I’ll consider fully switching. Many other games already work though, so I’m slowly converting to using Linux as my default and Windows as the exception instead of the other way around.

    (I use Arch btw)




  • I think it’d because the Trackmania arcade mode doesn’t really let you affect anyone else. Everyone in the server is obviously trying to go as fast as possible,and to a degree also get as high up on the session leaderboard as possible, but you can’t ruin each others laps. And while finishing high on the session leaderboard is nice, the overall goal for everyone is to get a good enough time on the map in general. To beat your own PB, to get all medals. So essentially the real opponent is your past self. This leads people to get quite cooperative. Having discussions about how to tackle certain parts of the track, congretulating each other with setting a new PB, etc.

    Playing against random people and especially with random people in other competitive games seems to generally get toxic. People blaming you for ruining their game, people getting mad. To me it’s very stressful. Even if I know that it shouldn’t affect me, and I’m never going to meet them again, it still does affect me negatively



  • At the moment basically anything competitive/ranked. I don’t want to compete online anymore because I know that I’ll have to go on an insane grind to get good. Only exception is trackmania because it somehow doesn’t upset me quite like other ranked online games. But even then I only play the “arcade” mode and not ranked