Yet.

They’re not dead yet.

I have no idea what I’m doing

So my suicidal depression boils down to just programming to you fucking imbeciles?

I ain’t programmed for shit, much less what you’re accusing me of

Huh. Do either of them have a sister? Who’s exactly like them? Maybe a twin? Adopted sibling? I’m asking because I’m desperate as fuck and have literally never met anyone exactly like me before

Man if only I could afford all these lights…I’d have the best party EVER

I can see that. No wait I can’t

Word, thank you fellow goth moth enthusiast

Ah shit. How does one attract both…?

Asking for myself I ain’t got friends

So where does one find marriageable moths around here

I’m in it, last relationship was 17 years or so ago

I mean it ain’t all bad. So long as you don’t mind the actual loneliness, the physical touch gets easy to forget.

But I dunno if I’d recommend this to anyone tbh

Oh edit because I didn’t address your question. No it doesn’t go away, but it gets easier to ignore over time. Also I’m on 1500mg oh lithium so that may impact things.

Idk I’m a shit person and I have a great support network. Honestly they’re the only reason I haven’t killed myself yet.

I think there’s a thin line between monster and hero. Like most human behaviors, I think the divide is much smaller than we might like to think.

Personally, I think we just have weird brains that tend to want to explain everything, even if it there may not be one. And we like to fill in those gaps with imagination, rather than accept ignorance. I forget the name of this scientific fallacy.

Anyways nice showerthought

Haha, to be honest I’ve tried pretty much everything I could find in the past three years. My therapist has gone from recommending lifestyle changes to (literally his last suggestion) ‘find a girlfriend’* lmao

Yeah I gotta change therapists. But yeah I’ve tried em all pretty much. My psychiatrist suggested electroshock last time. So I may use that to go out hahahahahaha

But yeah.

Thanks. I mean I’ll keep trying until I can’t. I haven’t given up yet.

Appreciate you for your support

I think this may be hit or miss. I’m in therapy, but the effects are minimal. Then again, I may just be ‘too sick’. I don’t know.

I think people are trying, and that’s great. But I know I’m losing my battle. It’s just matter of time. Nothing I do changes this.

Just me though. Good luck to y’all, the world sucks right now.

Yeah, I have severe (suicidal) depression and exercise doesn’t do shit for me. Sometimes it makes things worse even.

The meds have never worked lol

Anarchy and solidarity forever

I recommend not attempting civil discourse with tankie scum. They always use every opportunity to speak to muddy the waters and sow chaos.

I just use my prison wallet

Wait are we talking about rifles

Idk do you always wear pants? Cuz I never wear em if I have the choice